Sunday, November 29, 2009

You should've said no.

You should've said no.
You should've gone home.
You should've thought twice before you let it all go.
You should've known the word, bout' what you did with her.
Get back to me. (Get back to me)
And I should've been there in the back of your mind.
Shouldn't be asking myself why.
Shouldn't begging for forgiveness in on my feet.
You should've said no.
Baby and you might still have me.

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale I'm not the one you sweep of her feet. Lead her up the stairwell.

So watch me strike a match on all my wasted time, as far as i'm concerened. You're just another picture to burn.




I'm crying, letting out my tears. I'll be fine. I know I will. Maybe all I need is to perform. HAHA.
No really. Hmmmmmmmmm. Maybe just one day, I'll bring Amanda and Siti down my block and play the guitar. :-) HEHE. I miss performing. :(

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Do you remember?

Hey there people, I'm done with taking my break from blogging. I'm sorry if you guys thought I abandoned my blog or something. Today I've just been laying around, thinking about what I'm suppose to do with my life. And I realised, I'm not afraid to camwhore again. HAHAH.
I'm a photogenic now. Yay. How awesome. :-) Anywho.. I took a shower just now, ah, so awesome.
My hair smells nice, heh. *Grin.

Whoah Whoah. I Miss Mrs David terribly. Haha. I wanna meet her up soon.
And I miss Zhi Qi alot too. :'( Whoah. I need to meet up before my time runs out. HAHA.
Holidays will fly soon, really. Aww. Oh yea, I miss coffee. LOL.

And tomorrow is a big day. It's SITI's BIRTHDAY. HOW CAN I NOT REMEMBER THAT?!
I will always remember that. Since I don't know if I want/can post tomorrow, this is the earliest post I can give ya.

Happy Thirteenth Birthday my Dearest Siti.
You've always been a great friend and I know you always will. You know how to make me smile, you know what I like, what I don't like and everything. We're like sisters because, I've known you since I was 11. Despite the fact, I've hurt yea a few times, you' re still willing to forgive and forget. Whatever I did, I'm real sorry, I apologise you for that, but I'm going to be here for you alright. :) I love you so much and you deserve the best thirteenth birthday sweetie.
Thanks for everything, and in a few more hours, you'll be thirteen. YAY. :-) Once again, happy birthday my sister, siti. Hehe.

HEH. I just got my bread with egg + sausages from mum and guess what. The conversation went like this.

Mum: Nah, here's your food.
Me: Yay. Thanks, wait. *walks to fridge, grab maple syrup.
Mum: Maple Syrup on bread with egg, sure?
Me: YEA. Its AWESOME LAA.
Mum: What?
Me: Learn the word, Awesome! :)
Mum: AWESOME!!
Me: Yea! That's how you say it!! :D Haha.
Mum: Kidss....
Me: O.O! Hahah, okay thankss!!!

Haha, that was cute. Anyway, I'm hungry, so I'm off to eat, weeeee.

Friday, November 27, 2009

Change, change.

Dearest (insertname),
Girl, I know you think I told everyone about it. But listen. I didn't. I only told the ones who actually cared for me, and have been there for me all the time. I can't go to people and act like I and him is fine. When we're not. I can't just save his face all the time. This part, is between me and him. It's my mouth, I do what I want.
Second, if you think I'm acting like I'm just happy and fine about it, haha, I'm not acting. Because I believe I'm a really strong girl. If he didn't know how to manage a fight and then, solve it, but instead he insisted on a breakup, am I the one in fault. I apologized, I did my part. It's his part, but he never apologized. You call this basic courtesy? I'm sure you guys learned more than that in church right. :) But, anyway I don't blame him nor you at all. He's sad and I know that, but I've been hurt so much by him. That this time, nothing really hurts. Its all numb, haha. (: I have friends who are gonna be there for me, through thick and thin. All I really need is them, and you too girl. Don't worry about me, I'm always happy. No matter what. But I can't talk to him, cuz he'll avoid me anyway, so I don't wanna do anything about it alright. If you think I'm really in fault, without listening to what I've been through, I don't wanna say anything.
Its him thats gonna be immature if he told everyone about it, it's not me. My closest friends only knows about it yea. :)
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Alright. Those of you who just read that post, you think I've broken up with so and so. Truth is, maybe I have. But. Just don't come putting at my tagboard, 'WHY YOU BREAK?!' or 'WHAT HAPPEN?!?!' Cuz I'm not telling. I have no intentions of bringing up the past nor mentioning that guy's name anymore. So if you wanna know, come and find me and ask me, I'm not gonna tell you why it's over, I'll just say if we're over - or not. Thanks. :-) Those of you who know why, I trust that you'll keep quiet about it.

So he's outta my life. I'm not happy about it. But if that's what he really wants, I'll give it. :-)
Today I earned real money with playing cards with my relatives. MAN. THEY'RE BROKE :)
And I've earned quite alot, hehe. I know I like to boss. But C'MON!! FIRST TIME. HAHAH :)
Anywho, my luck just came, I dont know what/who is my lucky charm, but thanks.
I'm smiling, and I promise to change to be for the better next year and to keep to my priorities straight and where it needs to be. I'm still a strong lil' girl. :)

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Breathe.

I see your face in my mind as I drive away.

I'm back with my emoself. I think i'm better off being alone and sad sometimes. It's just that whatever I'm feeling, I don't show it. I'm always having that big grin on my face no matter what I'm feeling deep in my heart. This simply proves how much I've been hurt before.
Going back and forth in love is just - tiring. I dont mean to say that I'm done and over with it, but because it's the only thing I could ever rely on that this time, I can't seem to make up my mind.
Sigh, I don't know what to say or do at this very point of time. Though I wanna thank Darius, Siti and Amanda for cheering me up. Appreciate it alot guys.
But just that - everytime I go down, there's no one to pick me up. What the hell am I suppose to say right now, I miss you but nothing seem to go right. Why can't you make simple sacrifices for me? Sigh.

Today went out with Siti to JurongPoint. Before that, I didn't know there was no band, whoah.
That was damn sad. :-( I woke up @ 7:30AM but it was a waste, sigh. But good news, saw LJ. Haha. It was damn fun lar. Heheh. We had loads of fun, even though we were just slacking at hawker. After that, went to mac with siti for breakfast. Thanks for comin' along girl. :) Then, I had happy meal, haha. So fun sticking the stickers on my bassguitar. Hahahahaha.
Oh well, then we left for my house, slacked there. We had fun. And I was on my bed, trying to figure out the flash on my camera-phone then the idiotic flash kept on flashing on my eyes/face. Grrr. After that, my eyes were blur, yeah, Siti is definitely right. Haha. Then went to Siti's house, she changed we left to JurongPoint. Ate at Burger King and left for walk-walk. I loved kiddy palace best. Hahahah. It was heck fun. There was this parrot candy thingy then I didn't know how to work it, so I was pressing it, then suddenly the parrot made a noise. That freaked me out so so bad. While Siti was laughing away, hahah. Oh well, then we went to arcade and guess what.
There was a lady standing behind one of the machines. Then she was saying, 'catch .. la..y..'.
I couldn't catch what she was saying, so I said, 'Huh?'. I was abit back, because there was an aunty infront of me, and beside Siti. So Siti wanted to repeat her sentence, and she eventually repeated it to another random aunty. When I came out. I was laughing my freaking ass out.

Siti is just damn cute. HAHAHAH. SUCKER! You made me spit mc flurry at a poor kid, so here you go another humilliation for ya. Hahah. Okay, joking. It was fun though. Then yeah, bought nail polish then left Jurong Point cuz I was tired. Damn tired.
Then reached bouna vista, took 92 home. Then home. The same ol' thing, more scolding from mum and dad somehow. Mum has changed, just cuz she has some stupid moodswing, she's picking it on me. Sigh. I can't believe everyone I love is changing, and turning me down, :'(
It's sad to see things like this happen at this point of time.

Can't wait for the 29th. Though my husband will leave, :(

Monday, November 23, 2009

The Little Things

The little things, Colbie Caillat.

The little things, you do to me are,
Taking me over, I wanna show ya
Everything inside of me oh,
Like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating
My feet are stuck here, against the pavement
I wanna break free, I wanna make it
Closer to your eyes, get your attention
Before you pass me by

So back up, back up,
take another chance.
Don't you mess up, mess up,
I don't wanna lose you.
Wake up, wake up,
this aint just a thing that you
give up, give up.
Don't you say that I'd be,
better off, better off,
sleepin by myself and wonderin'.
If I'm better off, better off,
without you boy.

And every time, you notice me by
Holding me closely, and saying sweet things
I don't believe, that it could be
You speaking your mind and, saying the real thing
My feet have broke free, and I am leaving
I'm not gonna stand here, feeling lonely but
I don't regret it, and I won't think this
Was just a waste of time

So back up back up take another chance
Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this aint just a thing that you
Give up give up don't you say that I'd be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin
If I'm better off better off, with out you boy


So don't just leave,
Leave me hanging on.
So don't just leave,
Leave me hanging on.

The little things you do to me are
Taking me over, I wanna show ya
Everything inside of me oh,
Like a nervous heart that, is crazy beating
My feet are stuck here, against the pavement
I wanna break free, I wanna make it
Closer to your eyes, get your attention
Before you pass me by

So don't just leave, leave me hanging on

So back up back up take another chance
Don't you mess up mess up I don't wanna lose you
Wake up wake up this ain't just a thing that you
Give up give up don't you say that I'd be
Better off better off, sleepin by myself and wonderin (so don't just leave, leave me hanging on)
Better off better off, without you boy(so don't just leave, leave me hanging on)

So don't just leave, leave me hanging on
Don't just leave,
Leave me hanging on
Leave me hanging on
So don't just leave, leave me hanging on

( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_6grQkh4kQ ) Adore this song, best for my rainy day. :-)

Sunday, November 22, 2009

100 facts.

1. My name is made up of all my nicknames.
2. I'm not a male.
3. I don't like pickle.
4. I'm thirteen.
5. I like music that make me go, 'whoa'.
6. I don't own big house and eat at fancy restaurants everyday.
7. I'm a pianist, guitarist, clarinetist.
8. I don't like being a girl at times.
9. I like happy meals.
10. I'm a fan of Macdonalds and KFC.
11. I'm obsessed with the color green.
12. What I wear goes by my mood, so if I'm wearing all black, something is wrong.
13. I own a spongebob bag, spongebob keychain, spongebob handphone wallpaper, spongebob desktop wallpaper.
14. I like spongebob, hehe.
15. I'm in love with my boyfriend.
16. I crazy when it comes to wearing charm bracelets or anything that is on my hand. ;)
17. I do not like moodswings.
18. I get inspiration from just about everything I do or see everyday.
19. I'm a very profound person.
20. I don't like waking up early, especially for school.
21. I'm a perfectionist.
22. It takes a long time for me to read a book.
23. I get hungry so easily and I eat alot. But I'm not fat.
24. I have many goodfriends but only a number or so bestfriends.
25. I don't like horror movies.
26. I don't like any chick flick movies either.
27. I'm a huge fan of humor + sarcasm.
28. I'm in love with movies that is full of comedy, and laughter.
29. I like Disney.
30. But I hate Disney Cartoons sometimes.
31. I never really did watch Cars no matter how much I attempted to.
32. I've never like The Incredibles because I found it too weird.
33. I find Archie Comics very fascinating.
34. I tend to forget what I wanna say, most of the time.
35. I'm clumsy.
36. I'm very childish but I'm very mature. It all depends on my mood.
37. The songs I love, like, adore, hate, all depends on each month of certain point of time.
38. I like playing the guitar.
39. I'm a huge fan of beautiful piano melodies.
40. I love fashion.
41. I like to look at things all from a different perspective.
42. I enjoy studying.
43. I love long walks.
44. My dream is to walk in the sunset.
45. I'm an organised freak I might say.
46. I have a habit of constantly checking what I eat. (Which I think is weird)
47. I love literature no matter how annoying the teacher can get.
48. I'm a fan of texting.
49. I think without technology I would die.
50. I'm a very random freak.
51. I don't like to be called a bitch.
52. I get distracted very easily.
53. I memorize things easily, especially if it's a song.
54. I hate waking up from dreams.
55. I don't nightmares at all.
56. My imagination I must say, is very wild.
57. Unlike other people, I like Maths.
58. I love Science but I hate Physics.
59. I find Biology fasicnating.
60. I think the world would be better off without the Jonas Brothers and Miley Cyrus.
61. I'm a current fan of using words not many might have heard or known.
62. I don't own anything in my wadrobe that is over $100.
63. I'm a huge fan of writing.
64. I think poetry and literature is pure beauty.
65. I find pretty and perfect things in anything that you might think is imperfect.
66. I hate biased teachers.
67. I like holidays only sometimes.
68. I like being happy.
69. I hate it when you stare at me.
70. I love music that makes me laugh, no, there really is music that makes me laugh.
71. I remember street directions very easily.
72. I'm not in love with talking on the phone.
73. I think Lady Gaga is shit.
74. I'm a sarcastic girl.
75. I'm not that much of a person who likes compliments at times.
76. I love giving compliments.
77. I get along with small and cute boys and girls.
78. I like to play with small kids, because I find that awesome.
79. I don't like it when mum nags.
80. I hate it how people don't knock the door before they come in.
81. I hate bitches.
82. I love it how my boyfriend is perfect for me.
83. I like the library.
84. I hate disconnecting due to internet problems.
85. I like cupcorns.
86. I love coffee so bad, that I could drink it everyday.
87. No matter how much mum says bubbletea is bad for me, I still drink it.
88. I hate it when I'm broke.
89. I hate paying for my own ticket at a cinema.
90. I love it how the people around me get me.
91. I just find it amuzing that I like to laugh at myself when I fall.
92. I drop everything that I have because I'm clumsy.
93. I hate dogs.
94. I like cats.
95. I love singing and acting and whatever I might love doing.
96. I like ice-skating then falling on my butt.
97. I love star gazing, but never really got to do it.
98. I think love is one precious diamond god has given to me.
99. I'm a girl who has big dreams.
100. I am and I will always, be me.

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Chace Crawford



Oh my holy. Why does Chace Crawford gotta be this hot. :-D Heh. He's making me high. Oh boy.
ChaceCrawford, David Archuleta, Justin Bieber, Kim Hyun Joong, hot. Heh. <3